take it

i'll take it over and over.
i will because i can.
i will because i know now that which was you.
i will because i live now for that which comes,
and not for that which lingers in the haze of presence.

so i'll take it over and over.
i will because i will,
because it will fill me with something.
with which, at least, i can grow.

and with which i can know - that i was better off.

my first lesson lives here...the second is yet to arrive.